Saturday, April 21, 2007
Stress and broke down again...!
Went back to Chong Pang Camp tdy. Did an astonishing thing again.... I cried. Saw James at the sub-station thus went to inform him that I planned to resign tdy. I shocked myself also on the sudden decision. All due to a 730am call from CSM! James asked why? I told him my problems but ended up in tears. Failure! Its all because of CSM and CCO and the horti contractors.James called Jayce. Jayce came down to Chong Pang immed and talk to me.... Jayce and James kept assuming that Wendy was the one who made me stress out and break down. James went immed to Khatib to corner CSM and told him that he should call Wendy and screw her instead of me cos BNF is under DSTA not Keppel. For once, I pity Wendy.... She's innocent for tdy's matter actually. Dunno how to face her next time. But the 2 Js and Allan said DSTA should bear partial of the responsibilities cos they are the one who call for the contract = Wendy lor. Bro Kee Kiat also consoled me and taught me how to push the ball to DSTA and not throw the towel when I encountered problems. But... problem is... my biao da nen li is limited compared to Wendy and Lai Nee. They said its becos I lack experience in handling things. Feel very very unhappy tdy and unfair lor. I worked but I ended up being scolded for not working.
I submitted my resignation letter to James thereafter.... But he gave it back to me and told me not to do sa shi :/
I noe one day I will definately cheng shou bu liao de... I will ben kui....