Thursday, December 21, 2006
My grandma is ill. Seriously ill....!!
Today, we went to a temple at Thomson Road. My grandfather was the pioneer of this temple thus we earn a lot of respect from the people there. The reason we are there tdy is because my grandmother is ill. My father went to ask the 'God' for some 'fu' and bring back to give my grandma drink.
She used to be very weak, eating very little, moving with difficulties. I even bought her a walking stick. These few days she suddenly became very energetic, her voice is loud, clear and strong and she can get up from the chair with no help at all????
The 'God' told us to prepare for the worst. Its a sign of hui guang fang zhao. I cried.
The last time I cried terribly is when I saw my grandfather being pushed into the fire for cremation. I don't want this to happen to my dearest grandmother.
I used to understand what she's talking about but tonight when I saw her, she seems to be a stranger to me. She talk loudly to everybody, took out her old wedding photos, talk about dreaming of my grandfather and my uncle (my father's elder brother) saying she's gonna join them by Chinese New Year. My grandfather and great-grandparents left during the Chinese New Year seasons too.
My aunt quit her job to accompany her. She simply behave oddly. Yesterday, she did a shocking thing! She went around naked saying strange things. She used to be afraid of catching cold. Always wearing jacket and socks. Now I see her carrying a fan everywhere she goes saying she feel very hot.
She assumes my father, uncle and aunts are still kids, talking about wearing diapers thingy....
I almost cried out upon seeing such behaviour. I kept quiet for the whole night observing her every movement. Why is she behaving like that over a night? Is that really what the 'God' so called hui guang fang zhao?
I don't want her to leave me. I don't want! Never! I love her...! I will missed her badly... I can't imagine what new stunts she's gonna do tomorrow. I don't want to think nor see. I just want her to be as healthy as before, as clear-minded as before.
I gonna cry again.......